Because I refuse to lose..

Hey, honey eyes, I miss you so and I want to go back, but I'm terrified of the doubt inside me.
Your innocence makes me want to respect you or hate you...I don't know anymore.

And I don't know if I love you, care for you or if I'm sick of you. I'm afraid of myself. I'm afraid of what I'm not letting happen.

You and me. Me with you. Nothing.

I know what I want, and you're so far from it...but I feel for you so, for you I feel more than I'm supposed to...that's why I tried to defy my rules. I hurted you awfully then.

Where to go when all hope has left me? Do I have to stay forever?

Can I go find you again if I ever realize I was wrong?
Second chances are scarce, I know I don't deserve one.

Don't think I need it, even if I plead for it. Whatever happened has no meaning in this present.

But I still don't want to lose...

...and myself?